so dead, so dead.

i can totally see my grave from where i am now
yet i am STILL here, blogging
super nudge-r was suppose to start scolding me today
you suck la!!!!!
and you happily gone playing games.
RAH!
now i am meeting my coffin already
DAMN IT!
just when will i learn?
wish me luck?
many, plenty luck!!!

randomly search for pretty things
got me bum into him AGAIN!
put me away from him
thats the only way to it!!!
sweetheart get out of me asap/:
you can always come back when the time is right,
in real maybe?

AND dream partner,
how i wish you are a dream maker instead.
my fantasy.

in any case, i feel super accomplished today
done all super troublesome and not my stuff today
ALL BY MYSELF, no mistakes!
claps for this little girl here
good job!
YAY!

and when i was really happy at that moment
the next was almost tearing
serious multi-tasking while feeling so
yet still very focus
dk how i manage
and later
i told my mom about my fear
i told her to keep it to herself
but i still think she wont
whatever it is
i think she needs to know eventually
i am not that good
do back up plan for me
before i die/:
put me somewhere else?
far away or near
home or foreign
dont matter?
maybe i dont care anymore
idk; my best words

and now she's all for robbing me
fixing date for robbery
so unfair
my pay so puny yet rob me!

anyhow, forget it
AND be happy
talk as loud(:

idk what it is
be gone
miss